Buddy

Sometimes I think, maybe I just need a _____ buddy. Like…

Maybe I just need a movie watching buddy.

Or

Maybe I just need a drinking buddy.

Or

Maybe I just need a camping buddy.

Or

Maybe I just need a chatting buddy.

The list, honestly, could go on and on and on.

And the trouble is, I already know someone who could slot themselves into every single last one of those roles…

And it's you.

And the problem with that is, at least a couple of those “buddies” that you could be, so very, very easily… really just don't jive with our current situations.

So then sometimes I think… what if we tried, just with the ones that nobody would have a problem with?

And I guess we are now, aren't we? At least a little bit. We've already had one camping trip, and it sure looks like others are coming. For example.

But even the ones that don't involve touching… could we be movie buddies, without raising eyebrows? Seems unlikely, even if we always kept an empty seat between us. But, man I'd love to take in a flick with you.

Fuck, even chatting gets us called out. Or me, at any rate. And, if I'm being real honest? That's the one I want with you more than anything… Good god almighty do I enjoy talking to you. About anything. Everything. God, some days it's all I even think about; how would a conversation about X with you go?

But even so. Even assuming we could get those ones past the censors…

That raw animal lust that lies so very close beneath the surface… That barely contained desire to just put you up against the nearest wall, or car, or tree, or… whatever…

Well.

That complicates things, doesn't it?

Pretty sure fuck buddies would be frowned upon, pretty severely. Or hell, even snuggle buddies… which is something else I'd kill to do with you.

But I guess I could try. Rein in that beast — it's accustomed to being repressed, after all. If the result were that I got to spend more time with you? It would be worth it. Easily.

So, how ‘bout it, buddy?

Wanna chat?

Yours,
♒️